Why bother when there is so much life has to offer? People cannot commit to relationships, to dentist appointments, to their child's parent-teacher meetings. But they can jump off a building, point a gun to their head, hang themselves or perhaps drink poison? What goes on in the mind of the individual who is ending his/her life, an act completely unfair to his friends and family who have done so much for his living.
*Moonlight Sonata playing in the background leading my train of thoughts in a particular direction*
You say you are depressed because of a certain problem in your life.But,
How could the person allow depression, a mental problem(in the initial stages) to become a physical problem? What can be so wrong to make a person THAT unhealthy mentally and physically. I have suffered personal losses also. I escaped it by going away to another state for further schooling. An escapist. But not suicidal. Could I have chosen the noose? Yes, I suppose. But I would have thought about how much it would affect my mother and sister after one loss already. Did I want to allow depression to rule my life? Honestly, sometimes it would feel like a safe bet. Wallowing in misery and self pity. But no good would come of that. Family members and friends have invested time and money in me in hope of me becoming 'someone' in life whom they can, with pride,say that they knew and had fond memories with.
How can one give their problem so much of an importance when they know that it is trivial as compared to other more genuine ones?
A few things to be noted here:
If you feel that there is a problem,be it small or big, try and resolve it on your own. Stop blaming others. If you need help, ask for it. There is nothing wrong with seeking help from near or dear ones or perhaps, even a complete stranger. Humanity is not dead, yet.
You must realize that there are many people with the same 'problem' as you, others who have also incurred personal or even financial losses, others who are just like you but for whom the intensity of the problem may have been slightly more or less. Stop in your tracks, count your blessings for what you have at least rather than cribbing about what you may never have, and then press the 'play' button in your life again.
I'm going to reiterate the fact that your problem will seem petty if you compare it to say, the problem of poverty, of sex trafficking, of water shortage. Your actions should justify your words. If you cannot act up on your yet, don't speak. But start thinking about these things at least. Someone once rightly said: “Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.” A temporary problem that CAN be resolved!
Ask yourself these questions:
How different ARE you from others? Is your problem that grave that there can never be a solution? Can you reflect back on life and not find even one instance where you were just happy and use that to keep you going in search of more instances like that?
What's it going to be?
I don't know how far it is justified that I of all people am writing all this. But even if it doesn't apply completely, a discussion with some people over lunch made me start thinking on these lines. And writing about it is helping me get a slightly clearer picture of the concept of 'suicide' in my mind. Still a lot more reading and discussing needs to go into this and it will.