Maybe it's a problem of our times but at 23, I find myself being slightly uneasy and skeptical about spirituality in any form. I've sometimes had conversations about it and even tried my hand and meditation a few times and often fallen asleep, which is supposed to be a great result.
But when my aunt, Neerja Poddar, who works with access consciousness and hypnotherapy, asked me to attend a session, I found myself wanting to explore. Understandably, I had no idea what these two terms entailed but I had a hunch it could work, especially since her Reiki powers saved me from possible death many years ago when I was burning up with 106 fever.
So I reached her chamber, was asked to pick a partner from whom I felt the right energy to receive and lay down. What happened for the next 45 minutes isn't something I expected or understood. But to me, that wasn't too bad a thing. As my giver accessed various parts of my brain by placing her fingers in specific positions on my head, I started to feel calm. No clear visuals stood out in my mind but the blankness was appealing.
During one of the positions, I started seeing a purple dot, growing and then shrinking and then growing again, while dark waters surrounded it and I watched out of a sailing ship experiencing turbulence. That was the best way to describe it to Neerja, the facilitator. She explained that the purple implied infinity and the boat was preventing me from reaching that infinity. Using the clearing statements of access consciousness, she asked to destroy anything coming in the way of this and as soon as I said yes, I felt lighter and the negativity went away. It's wonderful that certain thoughts and emotions can be removed so easily from one's system!
The same process worked at different parts of the session when for instance, I felt choked and she had already sensed that I would. Soon enough, my breathing was back to normal. We then switched places and I became the giver and my partner the receiver. 45 minutes later, she was a different person too, in the subtlest of ways that no one can pinpoint to.
It wasn't the kind of healing one would expect, especially since it's working with one's own mind and energy and body. But it's fascinating to see the effect, and I sure did when I couldn't stop yawning that night.